A Different Light

IMG_7423Most people who know me know that I LOVE exercising. It’s part of my life! I don’t eat to diet, I eat to fuel my body (ice cream is the best fuel;)

But my exercise and eating habits have changed drastically over the last few years. Just a few years ago I would only go to the gym because I felt that if I didn’t go I would reverse all of my progress. I could imagine the pounds plopping themselves on my body, which is just ridiculous. I worked out 7 days a week and ate 1200-1300 calories a day, which were meticulously logged. Going out to dinner put me into a cold sweat, and the thought of going on vacation and not having access to a gym caused extreme anxiety. People would compliment me on my weight and I would smile, but inside I truly thought that it wasn’t enough. No matter what I did I was never happy with what I weighed or how I looked.

I honestly did not see any problem with how I was treating myself back then. The only thing I could think about was being “skinny”. Important people in my life would constantly tell me that I wasn’t “fat” and that I was beautiful but their words would go in one ear and out the other. A link was sent to me once about body dysmorphia and I read through it scoffing, not wanting to believe that it sounded like a description of myself.

Fast forward to today and I am the happiest that I have ever been with my health, fitness, and body. I look in the mirror and a true smile appears on my face. I spent years consistently logging my meals and calculating what and how much I was eating. The last year I have taught myself a lot about nutrition and I see food in a completely different light. I don’t do hours of cardio a day, instead I workout for about an hour a day and don’t cry if I miss a workout. I lift weights, do HIIT, add in shorter increments of cardio and I now see myself as strong. I have gained muscle, along with confidence. A weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and energy that was spent agonizing over my body is now being spent on the relationships in my life, things that truly make me happy. I still have moments and days that are rough, but it is night and day compared to where I once was.

I am 15 pounds heavier than I was at my lowest, but I feel my lightest. IMG_7373IMG_7392

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Oh Well…And an Introduction!

Obviously I never follow through on my blog posting plans, so I will never make a promise about the frequency of my posts again!! Hah! I will just go with the flow…suits me better… 🙂

Some exciting news has been happening over here, though! I will just start by introducing the new love of my life (sorry, Code), my best friend, new running buddy…Sparticus! (Sparty for short)

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I have been wanting to adopt a dog for YEARS! And we finally did it! We went to the pound a few days before my birthday back in June and we fell in love with this little guy. We had actually picked up his papers as well as another dogs (don’t tell Sparty) but were told the alternative dog probably wouldn’t be the best for first time dog owners.

We submitted our application and were told that one other couple had applied for Sparty as well and we would get a call the following morning about whether or not we got him. We tried not to get too excited…but then we got the call! Whoohoo!

We went to go meet him and fell in love all over again. However, he had some stomach problems and had to remain in the pound’s care for a couple more days to get checked out by the vet. He had been transported up from Texas the night before we met him because we was going to be put down. They believed that all of these events and stress caused the problems with Spart’s tummy.

 

And then the best day of my life (exaggerating a little…but not by much), on my favourite day of the year (my BIRTHDAY), we went to go pick him up to bring him to his forever home!

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He is seriously the best dog and we sure lucked out! He loves EVERYBODY and EVERY DOG! It is the best. He is becoming a very good running partner and he knows how to sit very well 😉 Really though, he is the best and I didn’t know that a dog could steal my heart like Sparty has ❤

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We even take naps together…

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He obviously likes to sleep! He gets bursts of energy and whenever we take him to the dog park or for a run he has a blast, but then as soon as we get home he is knocked out! It is the cutest!

He sure has made himself at home…

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So that is one thing that is going on around here! I figured since he will be making multiple appearances on here I would come back from my blogging leave by introducing him all to you! I have so many more things that I want to share and a list of topics that I want to talk about but will share them on a later date!

Hope everybody has a great day!

 

xoxo,

Shan 🙂

Drop the Plans

Oh boy, how long has it been? I definitely took a hiatus but I am back! I am back to posting once a week and am done taking 4 month long (yes FOUR month long) breaks!

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Something that has been on my mind as of late is how often plans change. I spend so much of my time planning; planning my week out, planning my weekend, planning what my wedding will be like, planning what my life will be like when both my man and I are in our careers. And I love thinking of the future, but I don’t want to spend all of my time in my head day dreaming and planning for things that are far away. Cody and I had made plans to live in Seattle once he graduated from UW because we had planned on him getting a job here! Alas, he did not and will be flying away to Arizona in August to work with an amazing company while I stay here and finish school. Now that is a plan that definitely did not work out. But I am okay with that! When plans don’t work out, we are challenged and that’s when our dreams are really put to the test.

So lately, something that I have been doing is living in the moment. Appreciating the time that I get to spend with Cody in the next few months before we live apart, my last few quarters in school and how much I am learning, where I am at in my health and fitness journey, and much, much more. I don’t want to fast forward through my life trying to get to the future.

 

Live in the moment, appreciate what’s around you, and love yourself at every stage.

 

xoxo,

 

Shan